Brap turned me on to this fellow about a month or so ago and wow, have my eyes been opened… every single week to be precise.
I feel the need to share his weekly broadcast with you here, in all parts (there are usually 6 on YouTube)
Enjoy and be loved 
Namaste
~M~
I am just so weary with the “I HAVE to do this in order to stand out and be different” It serves me no good and just honestly is part of the old Manda that I would rather do without thankyouverymuch.
That said, I have given up on the whole vegan/vegetarian thing, trying to control what my body wants/needs to be happy healthy and whole… This does not mean I have given in to eating processed crap riddled with GMO’s and other nasty chemicals, on the contrary… we are eating more whole, pure/organic food, this includes meat(grass fed and local) and dairy.
After wrestling with this over the weekend in my mind I can now say that I understand that the animals that become our food are aware that this is their purpose in the cycle of life and ultimately are ok with their fate.
I also have given up trying so hard to be different by shirking being feminine and pretty by not taking care of my looks and not giving to shits about how I look. Because guess what… I do give a darn and it does make a difference to me how I feel and how I look… Heck I have even noticed today with just a little makeup on how people are generally nicer to me, far far less scowls (yes I was the recipient of daily scowls from people in my life… including myself).
Life is just too short to not live in the NOW and embrace it for all it is worth. Trying to control things too much just lessens the experience and what fun is that really???
Sometimes a simple song speaks volumes… and makes us cry at our desks at work
“All Is Full Of Love”
You’ll be given love
You’ll be taken care of
You’ll be given love
You have to trust it
Maybe not from the sources
You have poured yours
Maybe not from the directions
You are staring at
Twist your head around
It’s all around you
All is full of love
All around you
All is full of love
You just ain’t receiving
All is full of love
Your phone is off the hook
All is full of love
Your doors are all shut
All is full of love!
All is full of love
All is full of love
All is full of love
All is full of love
All is full of love
“You are not a beautiful and unique snowflake. You are the same decaying organic matter as everyone else, and we are all part of the same compost pile.” ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 17
“…you’re not how much money you’ve got in the bank. You’re not your job. You’re not your family, and you’re not who you tell yourself…. You’re not your name…. You’re not your problems…. You’re not your age…. You are not your hopes.” ~Chuck Palahniuk, Fight Club, Chapter 18
Wise wise words of wisdom really if you think about it.
I have been grappling with my “snowflake-ness” as of late, it seems that there are much prettier and better formed snowflakes out there than me, I have been feeling like the malformed lopsided one made with the dirty snow. Then my sense of “I know better than to feel this way” hits me and I realize that I am the same as all the other snowflakes… we are all part of a bigger picture, each and every divine one of us. Snowflakes are fractals (just like everything else in this world really) it’s all part of the big picture, the oneness of the universe and All that Is.
So I suppose now when I look in the mirror I must see the connectiveness to the divine feminine that I and all women really are part of, we are all that snowflake, beautiful, intricate, sparkling…. It just seems like such a Herculean task, there are so many beautiful women out there as faces for such wonderful causes: truth, health, right, love, and just good where is there a place for the mousy haired, bespectacled round girl who is just waking up (albeit waking up big time!) and has nothing but good intentions.
I should embrace my sisters-in-arms and see myself in them, as we are all mirrors of one another really. Not see them as “oh I don’t like her, she’s too pretty to be smart” fuck that! smart is pretty…. at least this is what men have told me (note to self: brush up on the smarts, eh). So I am thinking this… I have a camera, it takes videos, I need to get over my fear of self (yes I said fear, I am scared of how I look hence the extra weight I have been schlepping with me for years now) I should start vlogging as well, if only for my personal edification.
On that note, it is late (ok actually 4 am gets here far too quickly some nights)…
g’nite all
much <3
M
This weekend I finally was able to procure a Juicer for Casa Allgood (aka home), wherein I promptly bought what one could call a “arseload” of fresh veggies for the juicing: apples, blood oranges (*yum*), pears, spinach, carrots and kale. First batch made was carrot and apple for Brap and carrot, apple, kale for me.
SO FREAKING GOOD!!!
Seriously if I had known how utterly good fresh juices were I would have invested the money into this a long long time ago rather than the two cans of super-food purchased oh, 6 months ago that are just now almost gone and basically cost the same as the juicer.
Yesterday for breakfast it was apple, pear, blood orange, carrot and spinach… HUGE glass full of goodness that gave me quite the energy buzz all morning.
Today I was unable to juice (I get up at the wee hour of 4am to get to work at 6am) and I am contemplating juicing before bed and just carting it in with me to work…. it’s that good
I will be 39…
I plan on taking the day off work as it is one of the few holidays I actually do celebrate/observe. Not sure exactly what I will do but I am sure something creative will happen, we just got a ton of new beads in (an ear-wires) so there is that, plus I have recently discovered the wonders of You-Tube and Crochet “how-to’s” by people I can understand and go slow enough for me to “get” the techniques.. I am hat girl right now
B has promised to make dinner for me and there will be something sweet and totally un-good for me for dessert (thinking banana splits *Yum*).
Not such a bad way to start your 39th time around the sun… things can only get better from here on out and as strange as it may sound, I am stoked about being that much closer to FORTY. Seriously, when I was even in my 20’s I never imagined I would still feel (and kinda look) as young as I do today (even with the gray hair).
Things are good, life is good, I am all good 
M
I was going to make this whole long drawn out “consumerism is bad therefore Christmas is bad” rant… then I realized what I really wanted to say was.
Play nice and love each-other
Happy Happy
The power of song..
Here I am doing my morning busywork (hey I am at work… gotta do something right) listening to Pandora and This song comes on:
Suddenly I am taken back to my freshman year of college. I am feeling open to all sorts of new experiences and understanding my world is opening up right before my eyes.
Then again it may just be the fact that I am 18 and no longer under the thumb of the Public School system, I have a FT job at a record store and am going to school Full Time as well (why yes I am a Capricorn and I can do anything/everything thanks for asking
Why am I telling you this, well simply put, I have just realized that there are certain “triggers” within myself that cause me to feel right with the world and open to all sorts of great things in life. I just need to stop and listen sometimes…. we all do
Much love
M
I have this wonderful little blog here and no inspiration as of late to write in it
It’s not like my life is boring, in fact my life is pretty darned interesting and spiffy, hardly boring. Yet I don’t have the urge to write.
I suppose this may just go the way of all my other blogs… or I may get some sort of inspiration one of these days and write about things…. *shrug*
So it seems that I have finally found direction for my life. I feel good about this decision and am so ready to begin this chapter of my existence on this big blue ball
